So insurmountably bad.
Each hour, each minute of sleep not had.
Like a zombie with a confusing responsibility.
On top of ‘Don’t Die’, keeping them alive is key in this reality-show-meets-documentary-meets horror movie.
It’s a low budget film, this one.
Who am I kidding? It’s no budget.
You’re spent. You’re done.
“The day will end”, Mum tells me.
Except that it won’t.
As the moon rises high in the sky
So does my anxiety.
Light fades into dark.
Dark into light.
Day into night.
“This too shall pass”, They say.
And I painfully nod away.
Somehow we’ve all survived another day.
But that’s not what keeps me up.
It’s the fact that I don’t know when all these bad feelings will stop.
Chronic, acute sleep deprivation feels so bad.
So insurmountably bad.
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